A Whole New Story

Had network security course for 2 days. It was fun. I am not very aware of the stuffs I’m surfing on the public network.

Which means no more using any banking online application at Starbucks, kopitiam, McD, mamak or wherever that provides free wifi. No no.

I am suppose to be working on my Business Network term paper which is due this Saturday, but I kept thinking about that person. I know I shouldn’t because it is not right.

Orang cakap, kalau kita asyik teringat kat seseorang, orang tu pun sebenarnya teringatkan kita, which I considered true because after I told him we are better off as colleagues last Sunday, I never remembered him at all. But since yesterday evening, I couldn’t get him off my mind, again.

I should forget him, yes?

Anyway, I have created a very awkward situation between him and me, because we started off as friends in Perhentian, and then colleagues who talk about work, and then teman tapi mesra and now back to just colleagues.

Do I regret doing this? A lil bit, but this is for each individual own good, I hope.

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Come on woman, you are not this pathetic. You are strong, you know you are. You can get through this.

MOVE ON.

Come on man, this is not funny.

Yes today is pay day.

But hampir semua dah lesap sebab membayar bil. Esok ada plan dengan colleague untuk bershopping kat Subang Parade. I’m definitely going to buy an iPhone cover and probably, a handbag. Ok cross that la. I don’t I need a handbag, just that I am lazy to angkut extra handbags from my parents’ house in Taiping. Am going back before Ramadhan starts, so better save.

Hooray, you are at least thinking straight.

Anyways.

Apsal aku type macam ni eh?

Lesson learnt today: DO NOT give your iPhone to your colleagues or you will end up like below:

Hahahaha. Ok sebenarnya aku jiwa kacau sebab dapat msg “miss you” at 0025 from that person.

What the…………… heck.

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Like, seriously?

• A friend from hometown wrote on her blog that she is no longer friends with her ex. I totally get her point. As of last year, I had crossed out all contacts (including related friends, it’s not like I’m very close to them) with my ex(s).  I can’t no longer live with the drama of ‘owh-we-can-still-be-friends’ which I had once believe. I feel that saying is bullshit now. There is no point staying friends with the ones who had hurt you so much, who had put you through emotional hell back then and still do when you ’scan be friends’. I no longer believe in that crap.
• I wonder why some of us (girls) still cling to the guy that you know had cheated and stabbed you many times. Why put yourself through misery? Is it because of the age factor (my age range), and everybody is getting married left and right, and you feel you NEED to settle down with this guy who has millions of tricks and sweet promises in his head and is set to put you on emotional roller coaster ride? Do you ladies still need this kind of nonsense? Why have stupid fights over stupid things when you can be patient and wait for the right guy to come along? Why do you ladies still need to stick with that cheater, loser or jerk who is messing up with your feelings? And I see some ladies also bearing expenses for their man who is ‘freelancing’ or ‘working on their own’. Get up and smell the coffee people, those kind of guys can’t even afford to have a decent job and you ladies still stick like glue? How can they afford you when you get married??
• Ok stop telling me you are willing to do all of that out of love. Again, that’s crap. At least, if your man has a decent job, he is able to feed himself and you, that’s good enough.
• I’m saying this because of a few conversation I had with a friend and my cousin. We see ladies that got married to losers and end up in divorce and wishing that they never married out of pressure because they can’t bear the stress of a divorce.  They wish they can turn back time and be single, and have fun until Mr. Right come along. It’s sad to see this ok.
• Whatever it is, kembali kepadaNya. My mum always said that setiap orang Allah SWT dah tetapkan jodohnya. Lambat atau cepat je. If you have this feeling like ‘why am I not married yet when my friends and family are’, look back at yourself. Is there some parts of your life that still lack of commitment? I mean, in work, in life, parents? If you see this, you know that there’s a reason why you have not found your Mr. Right yet.
• I know, because I still lack of many things in my life. Especially in the finance matter. I have to be able to control and juggle my expenses, kalau tak, macam mana nak ada family and survive?
• Owh yea, in my both sides of my parents family, the earliest age of marriage is 27. Believe it or not.

Jadi, baik2 sayang, in choosing your man. I know I am.

p/s: Am going to Diey’s wedding today with Emi!

Yesterday I tried the whole day to access the system but it kept giving me ‘Page Cannot be Displayed’.

2 of my friends had already got their result yesterday.

Now at 6.30AM in the morning I can access the system totally and now the students result are in process?

:”(

Cukup nervous dah ni. Harap2 later pagi ni boleh check. Doakan saya dapat result bagus ye everyone.

Perhentian Kecil

Perhentian Besar

The same origin. The same water. The same sand.

Tapi sedangkan pasir boleh beralih, inikan hati. Jiwa pun boleh berubah.

Tak mungkin sama.

Wow there’s a lot of entries in my Draft section that I have yet to publish.

Most of them are random entries that I never finished writing.

Hm.

It’s a wonder when a friend starts to get in touch with you after being hiatus from your life for so long.

She or he used to hang out with you a lot. Gone through ups and downs with you. And when they went MIA, you just let them go, or maybe, you tried to reach out to your friend, but she or he never respond. Maybe responded, but the sentences or calls sounded too distant.

This happen too many times, you said.

You start to let your friend go.

Then, that friend came back to your life, giving you affectionate wishes and saying nice things, etc.  You felt emotionless, you do not know what to respond. Instead, you gave that person a distant-sounding sentences in text messages or calls. It’s not revenge, no. It’s just that you are tired because it happened again and again.

That person, when she or he found that special someone, that person (without realizing) had put a distance in your relationship. Your friends warned you about this because they had been in the situation before, but you stood by your friend, defended that your friend is not guilty for finding love.

And then it happened to you, again and again. It actually happened before, but you choose to ignore it because you thought you are being a loyal friend.

One day, you had enough. You just could not care what happen to your friend anymore.

Have you been in this kind of situation?