A Whole New Story

Mas, I want to be slimmer too, but I guess age and physical relate to each other?

Mari tengok evolution physical saya for the past 5 years.

2004: Visiting Malacca. A lil bit berisi, but boleh manage.

2005: Last day of internship in TNT Comm. Ini paling kurus masa zaman belajar ok.

I guess I was slimmer this time because I was involved with martial arts and many activities.

Mestilah baju kebaya tu tak muat dah

2006: With Azwan, iftar with #15thn people.

Wan, masa ni kita dua2 kurus, ye tak? Uhuu.

2007: Lenovo moments. Nampak kurus tak?

I can’t fit to into that shirt anymore

2008: with Shambie during induction in Johor.

Sudah nampak naik kan?

2009: Lata Kinjang with Emi. Ha masa ni bebetul chubby dah.

2010: Singapore with the girls. Still the same.

Haih, I hope after Ramadhan will be slimmer a bit. Of course I can’t go down back to the size I was 5 years ago, unless I work hard on it (which is pretty impossible with my tight schedule of work + studies).

Owh Mohd Syafie Naswip, how have you grown from Mukhsin.

Anyway, this is  a good advert. It’s good to know Leo Burnett is still the company producing it, with Tan Yew Long as one of the creative directors.

Yes, aku bukan penakut lagi.

I did what I have to do. Risky, yes, but I have to stop whatever mixed signals and vibes that were going on.

I am not confident enough to remain platonic if you keep going on like this.

Hoping for some understanding, on my side.

At least you are happy with your side, no?

Friday

After work, I rushed home to pray, took a bath and changed to proper attire (jeans and t-shirt, of course) and head down to PJ. Was stuck in traffic for 1 and 1/2 hour. Selamat lah.

Picked up the person and headed to Williams. Had seafood aulio, terbaik! Siapa kaki makan pasta sila lah ke Williams makan seafood aulio dia, gua promote ni, serious.

YUMMMMMMMEEHHHHH!

Shared my knowledge on the former system with that person. Left Williams at 11.30pm, dropped him off and went back home. Arrive at 1.00am exact. I know, I am kind of crazy for going home at 1am in the morning, alone. Bukannya dekat PJ – Shah Alam tu. Never again.

Saturday

1st class for Sem 2. Glad to see ‘the gang’ back. By the word ‘gang’, I mean Iza, Ita, Yaz, Hadi and Meno. We are like the noisiest students for part-time ok. Banyak cakap and kaki gelak pulak tu. It felt good to see them again.

1st class, Advanced Interaction Design. Gila banyak keja. BANYAK TAK TIPU. 1st term paper due in 2 weeks. Horror. 2nd class, alamak gua lupa dah nama subject, ok ok, Information Strategic Planning, or SISP (something like that). Ini agak cool sebab lecturer tak nak assignment in hardcopy, dia pening kepala nak baca, so send via email and buat powerpoint presentation je. 3rd class, Network, there were a bunch of students (assuming them are Part 1 and have not yet registered) filled up the classroom. Semua orang jadi tak selesa because ramai sangat, which reminds me off my lectures back in MMU, crammed. When we checked online, only 22 students were registered so the gang is safe.

Owh, ketua kelas aka Meno dah tuntut aku belanja, so next week kena lah belanja diaorang. Hehe.

Classes finished off at 5pm (1 hr earlier) and rushed back home. Syahda was around, changed clothes and went out at 8pm and picked up that person, again. Went to see a new colleague in Puchong and briefed him some of the work details that he needed to know as he is replacing me in my former office. Off to Midvalley after that, 11.45pm show, Predator. It was ok, I guess. Sent that person back and arrived home around 3am. I know, another late night. Huhu.

Sunday

Woke up because that person called and told me he failed his exam undang2. Tried to console him for a bit, promised that I would see him later in the evening if I can. Off to Subang Parade alone to have facial session at Yves Rocher. OMG my skin felt so good after 2-years of no facial. Facial finished at 3pm, and off to Curve to see a very special friend, I will call her MsPink. I had a very special reason to see her and I was glad I met her at last =)

Out from the Curve at 6.45pm, went to PJ to picked up that person again and went to Sunway for Ayam Penyet Ria.  I would put up the picture of that delicious ayam penyet but it is in that person’s phone, still waiting for him to email me the pics. Blog aku ni dah penuh dengan gambar makanan kot, mana la tak tembam asyik makan je. Hahahaha.

So yeah, my weekend was full, tiring and sad for a bit. Why sad? Because I was out for 3 days straight with that person and I was only happy temporarily.

At least I met him, again. I just hope this feeling will just go away.

I feel calm when I’m just talking or out with this particular person.

Ya Allah, tolong aku.

This feeling is getting stronger, not weaker.

Thank you for the two days. Of course I’ll never know when I will see u again.

I wish you would just guess, or know.

This isn’t the time to make hard and fast decisions, its time to make mistakes. Take the wrong train and get stuck somewhere chill. Fall in love – a lot. Major in philosophy ‘cause there’s no way to make a career out of that. Change your mind. Then change it again, because nothing is permanent.

So make as many mistakes as you can. That way, someday, when they ask again what we want to be… we won’t have to guess. We’ll know.

- Jessica Stanley, Eclipse (the movie), 2010.

Yes, we are allowed to make mistakes over and over again.

Yes, we are allowed to learn from our mistakes.

And yes, we are allowed to fall and fumbled and get back up again.

Still, when you know you are ignoring things and keeping your eyes blind to the obvious mistakes that you had done, how long can you stand? You have known, from your many previous experience that in a particular situation, there’s no use of hanging around anymore. You keep believing in something that’s never gonna change. You keep having faith that miracle will happen. You hope.

Guess what sayangku, sometimes hoping gets you no where, when God had shown you so many reasons for you to leave. You keep praying everything will work out, every situation will untangle themselves if you keep working hard on it.

I am saying this because of a particular 3-years-experience I had. There are things that would not work out and you just have to walk away. Start a new hope and keep having faith that sooner or later things will work out for you.

Don’t hurt your soul.

I felt like almost every thing in my life is cloudy now. I can’t see beyond it. I am usually a decisive person, but cloudiness does not help in making decisions. I need things to be clear. I pray to God everyday that every thing will be ok.

As most of my friends know, I am a very straightforward person. I don’t speak in codes. I don’t write metaphorically. I am honest, but I am not blunt. You have to think first before you talk or act. I have learnt my lesson back in my younger days that saying everything straight out from your head usually does not give you any good outcome.

Ya Allah, please let every thing be ok.