A Whole New Story

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I love it because, well, obviously because of the classic element of P.Ramlee. If you ever watched P.Ramlee the Musical, you should be amazed how Musly Ramlee is so much like the late P.Ramlee.

Yesterday I slept like there’s nobody’s business. Almost 9 hrs of sleep since 9.30PM until 9.30AM today. I was not as fit as before (this is sad) because of lack of sleep, the humid weather (Shah Alam PANAS ok) and of course, myself. I’m hoping that I can get into a skipping routine or something after raya because I do have ample time after work. Let’s see how that goes this time.

Now I’m in the midst of doing my assignment which thank God that the due date had been delayed to Monday. I am not the person  who can write without reading the correct materials and I don’t like doing things quickly without any quality because me myself won’t be satisfied with my work if it is just taken from somebody’s else work. That is of course, last resort.

Due to that reason, I had changed my plans from writing a dissertation for my final masters semester to doing a full IT project instead. 1st time doing IT management project, should be very interesting and challenging indeed, because the previous project that I had done was all technical project.

Writing is my passion but due to lack of time and the reading materials that I have to go through for dissertation and of course, work comes 1st, I don’t think I can manage to produce a good quality dissertation. Just imagine a typical assignment or term paper I need around average of 7 to 10 references, dissertation should need about 60-80 references? Oh no, I really don’t have much time to read that much unless I’m a full-time student. But who knows, I might change my decision because I still love writing as much as I love reading. Just that, time. I need more time.

*Sigh*

Time do kill us all if we are not for the challenge.

Rasa sunyi amat.

I have been feeling so many things lately I do not know where to start.

Yesterday, I read this and I was touched. What if this happens to one of my friend? Can I handle it?

Today, I read this and I know I am weak. I need to get over that person.Like the author said, betul2 berserah.

I know how to fall in love. I know when I love someone.

Somehow, I realize that now I do not know how to be in love. Bercinta. I didn’t know the ways anymore, or unconsciously I had taught myself to forget how to be in love.

I usually keep a distance between the person that I am newly in love with, or the person who wants to be in love with me.

I am afraid that this will cost me in finding my future life partner.

No, I am not with anybody right now, but I just want someone to teach me how to bercinta again.

Cover by Lifehouse.

Saja2 nak tulis. Mood tengah tak betul. Bulan puasa2 tak baik marah2 kan, so let me vent here.

1. Org yang tak reti fikir situasi org lain. For example, you are in a class, having TWO presentations, and yet someone asked you to call some place to book the tickets. Orang yang suruh kau tu boleh je call, tapi saja tak nak. Malas mungkin?
2. //edited     Materialistic guys. MAJOR TURN OFF WEY. Ok, aku dulu2 time belajar 2002-2004 macam tu. Agak suka pakai branded stuffs (dulu mana ada jual baju2 online murah macam skarang). I admit that I wore those type back then. Tapi ada la kawan sorang ni, sebab penampilan aku yang dulu, dia assume aku macam  tu kot sampai skang. Assume aku banyak duit sentiasa. Ajak makan tempat standard2 walhal aku prefer makan kat gerai2 tomyam camtu. Gaji aku tak banyak macam kau. Lagi2 aku tengah belajar. Sewa rumah lagi. Imagine lah expenditure aku macam mana. Sekarang ni baru aku tau langit tinggi rendah, dulu masa enjoy duit mak ayah tak ingat. Skarang aku sangat2 appreciate duit sendiri ok. So please understand.
3. Member2 yang iya2 plan, pastu tak jadi. Last minute. Itu memang membuatkan aku pissed off gila. I mean, ok kalau emergency ke apa, tapi if datang silly reasons mmg menyakitkan hati. Pastu selalu bising2 aku bz, tak nak kuar berjumpa or hang out. Bila aku ajak, tak de response pulak. WTH la kan.
4. Kelamkabutness. Dapat sorang kelamkabut memang aku rasa nak tampar2 je.
5. People who does not think of others’ feelings. Aku tau kau tua dari aku, I am supposed to respect you, tapi mempersendakan ayat orang dan indirectly humiliate me (even if you don’t realize it, that’s WHY you need to realize it), adalah tak patut sama skali. Hilang respect aku sama kau, tak kisah la kau rapat ke tak.

Sekian, terima kasih.

Time since yesterday:  1655, 2345

Sahur: 0427

Kau ok ke tak ok ni?

Anyway, I was up from 0000 to 0300 this morning and nearly replied with this:

“I thought you said you had pressed the ESC button”.

But I didn’t of course, as I have other important things to take care of, like my Network assignment.

Ya Allah, please guide me. Please.