A Whole New Story

Mas, I want to be slimmer too, but I guess age and physical relate to each other?

Mari tengok evolution physical saya for the past 5 years.

2004: Visiting Malacca. A lil bit berisi, but boleh manage.

2005: Last day of internship in TNT Comm. Ini paling kurus masa zaman belajar ok.

I guess I was slimmer this time because I was involved with martial arts and many activities.

Mestilah baju kebaya tu tak muat dah

2006: With Azwan, iftar with #15thn people.

Wan, masa ni kita dua2 kurus, ye tak? Uhuu.

2007: Lenovo moments. Nampak kurus tak?

I can’t fit to into that shirt anymore

2008: with Shambie during induction in Johor.

Sudah nampak naik kan?

2009: Lata Kinjang with Emi. Ha masa ni bebetul chubby dah.

2010: Singapore with the girls. Still the same.

Haih, I hope after Ramadhan will be slimmer a bit. Of course I can’t go down back to the size I was 5 years ago, unless I work hard on it (which is pretty impossible with my tight schedule of work + studies).

I am now in class and I am not 100% concentrating.

What do you expect? It’s 1.42PM and fasting. Mestilah mengantuk.

I kept myself busy by playing games on my laptop.

Anyway, I’m thinking of going to Alamanda to buy my watch, but then again next week I’m going to iftar with my fellow girlfriends + Mur from MMU at Seoul Kerinchi. Might as well I go to Midvalley to buy it.

Ok ignore this entry, I’m just sleepy and I need to do something. ~_~

What’s the definition of wealth (or mewah in Malay) for you?

Have you had dreams of becoming wealthy? I mean, filthy-rich where buying a Maserati (ehem!) as your daily car.

I had seen the richest of the rich, and I never have any desire or dream to become filthy rich or wealthy.

I came from a well-to-do family, but because I am an only child, I tend to get the best things that my parents can get for me. My dad likes buying stuffs that have quality and does not mind paying high prices as long as it is in good quality. I inherit this trait from my dad it seems. Where else my mom is just the opposite, she will choose things carefully and does not like wasting her money. Many times that she complained that she never taught me to buy stuffs with labels or brands.

I answered “Yes ma, I know you never taught me all those stuffs, I learned it myself.” So no, my parents does not influence me at all in this matter.

I admit that being an only child has it advantages. I used to request from my parents to buy clothes from brands, but never designer labels because it is way out of the league. At that point, I never realized the value of my parents’ money. During those years (2000-2005) Padini, East India, Esprit, Roxy & Quiksilver were my favourites. I know a lot of my friends seem to think that my parents are rich to buy me those stuffs and it gave me the ‘high-maintenance’ impression.

And of course, it costs me until now. Some people still seem to think of me as that kinda of girl, but my closest friends know that I am not like that. I am a flexible person who you can bring anywhere, eat at a stall or mamak, tepi longkang punya gerai ke apa, aku tak kisah as long as the food is delicious. I don’t really fancy to eat at hotels, because of the prim and proper protocol, and my favourite food is tomyam, so bring me to any good tomyam restaurant or stall and I’ll eat, A LOT.

And owh yes, because of the way I was back then, I had influenced 2 persons to change. One of them had pissed me off at the end of the relationship because of this sentence, “I’m done being middle class. I’m done buying rm10 t-shirts from pasar malam. I want to buy at least Padini,”.

You know what happened. I left him. He was doing a MLM thing at that time and I was against the “quick-money-scheme”.

No, I don’t go for kemewahan but I like my life to be satisfactory, well-to-do.

I started to value my money and my parents’ after I started my industrial training in 2006. 2007, I started working and that’s where I start budgeting and try not to waste on unnecessary stuffs like expensive food and clothes. Thank God for technology, online boutiques came up and the prices are way cheaper than the retail outlets.

It annoys the hell out of me when people ask their friends to go to expensive outlets without considering the other party financial condition. At least, think and try to suit it in your situation. Go somewhere inexpensive if you cannot treat your friend or just get takeout and eat at home. Do some activities that does not involve spending any money like walking in the park, short roadtrip (without buying anything), things like that.

Why must you spend so much? This is the time where you can save for your future. I am not a good saver myself, I am still struggling because of the financial mistakes I made few years back.

Aku tak nak mewah, sebab aku tak nak lupa aku siapa.

I have yet to replace by faithful Fossil watch that died a few months back.

I am still attached to it, I carried it around in my handbag all the time.

Anyway, I need suggestion, and please please please give me your opinion because I know you are my good friends (the ones who read here).

My budget is no more than RM300, and I know I can’t afford Fossil with that amount.

Kindly leave your suggestion on a good quality watch that can last for years. Thanks.

Hello workplace people! (in case they visit here because our workshop trainer had used my email in Google and of course this blog came up in the search result).

Salam Ramadhan to all Muslims. Happy fasting everyone.

I want to feel in all the empty spaces in my life.

There’s one more left, but I do not know when it is going to be filled.

Things are harder than I thought it would be, but it has become a routine for the past 2 years it almost felt nothing. I just hope that the routine will stop after I found the right one.

Few friends had pointed this thing out to me, but I never given so much time to think about it. A friend pointed it out again last Sunday while we were eating lunch, and it got me thinking, maybe the routine has become so normal to me I can just continue my life in a breeze. The ability to have many things stressing up in my life, things that make hurt, angry, cry and depressed, but at the same time able to focus on tasks, work, anything job-related. For instance, the example that my friend pointed out, how I managed to have never ending fights with my ex-bf, cry, scream, depression, and then just sit and be quiet for  a moment, walk back to my desk and started studying my ass off and still get good results despite all the mess that happened.

I do not know how I do it, but all I know is I would put focus my rage, my sadness and my hatred towards the task or job I need to do. And the focus that I gave made me forget all the problem.

Yesterday nite I watched Dear John. Dear oh dear what a sad movie. I bet the book is so so much better, but the movie was enough to make me weep. Weep ok, not cry. Darn you Nicholas Sparks, always writing a good book that can make my emotions stir.

To my dearest friend, I know you are strong. Like I said, time always ‘kill’ us all, but it is usually temporarily.

The important thing is to fight,for yourself, your pride and your dignity. This goes all to the women out there.